you ever just wake up feeling like you should just end it all.
i woke up every day this week feeling like shit over stupid shit from almost two years ago. 4 years ago my girlfriend moved away and we tried the long distance thing for about 4 months and it was fine but we just stopped. one day she didn’t call, so i didn’t call and we never ended it. so i went on to hate my self for not even ending it cuz i loved her or at least thought i did. then after my 12th grade year i was in collage i went back on myspace after 6 months and saw few messages from her. so we started to talk again and we feel back in love perfectly never missing a beat and it was still long distance but we made it work. then one day i started to snoop around i knew her password and found she was leaving messages on some guys myspace saying she loved him but it was privet and her friends knew him. so i got distant thinking she was just cheating. but we had a pact that on november 5 2011 ( it was because of remember remember the fifth of november.) we would meet back up in person. but after a wile we broke up like last time stopped talking but this time it was because it was my birthday and when i called her i was with my friends and she hated them. mostly my best friend at the time. and i got pissed and didn’t call and two weeks go by no call. i meet a new girl and we fucked then she had a pregnancy scare ( she just lied and never thought she was she just wanted me to date her.). but friday night hanging with my friends i was on tumblr and i guess it turned Saturday because all i see is remember remember the fifth of november. i had to take a walk and i just started to cry. i miss her now i didn’t think of her really that much except when other brought her up. so i looked for her on face book and i find her. guess who she’s friends with my old best friend she hated and it killed me more. idk what to think right now. i know is i miss her now, but i don’t know if i miss her or just miss having some one to love.
i just needed to vent but if any one has any advice, i’m open.
———keith
